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Pairing: Snape/Dumbledore
Rating: PG (Worksafe)
Prompt: #100. 1-3 Pairing(s): Severus/Albus. Prompt: "You disgust me."
Warnings: Implied onanism.
Summary: Bad habits are hard to break.
Author's Notes: Dear prompter, maybe this is not what you had in mind, but I hope you'll like it nonetheless. Thanks to
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February 14 2012, 05:32:49 UTC 3 months ago
I think you've left quite a bit to be interpreted and I love that.
February 14 2012, 06:07:06 UTC 3 months ago Edited: February 14 2012, 07:07:59 UTC
Dearest, dearest Artist, you have outdone yourself. The combination of black-and-white and Gryffindor/Slytherin coloured panels, of Dumbledore's indelible, unforgivable, branding, shockingly personal words to Snape, so fittingly conveyed in explosive, negative fits of ink and set in contrast to the handwritten, self-directed relayed message of the final panel -- well it is so brilliant that I find myself at a loss for words.
I shall attempt to begin with the first panel. God. Severus' nakedness and relatively frontal pose draw the viewer's gaze at once. He is beautiful and grotesque in his emaciation and blankness and in his own peculiar geometry of light and shadow. At first glance it is difficult to establish his expression. Perhaps he is occluding, I thought. Or worse, remembering. I was almost inclined to pick up a sense of self-disgust on his own part -- his tightened jaw, his slightly averted gaze and the fact that he keeps his back to the mirror would seem to suggest this, as though seeing himself, so stripped (by Albus' words) and gaunt, mirrored in the absolute squalor of his surroundings would reinforce their truth. And yet, in contrast to panels three and four, whose importance is underscored by their skewed and elongated length, Severus' in his excoriated vulnerability suddenly gains a kind of dignity. The contrast to Albus is so instructive, Albus, who clearly avoids looking into the mirror, whose face remains averted and shamefully downcast. Severus does not avoid the mirror; he is not interested in seeing himself or the past (the bathroom that could just be Spinner's End, the outbrushed toothbrush!), but rather something outside of his own frame, something perhaps only the viewer is aware of, something perhaps locked inside himself, something that one might call his future purpose, perhaps, a purpose that may have been spurred on by Albus' disgust. That dignity, that ability to appear unflinchingly naked before whatever lies beyond, before whatever words might strike him, no matter the circumstances he is surrounded by, is extraordinary, especially when placed next to the hillside scene from canon (so exquisitely rendered, almost reminiscent of a woodcut, with a fascinating bird's eye perspective that highlights the imbalance and volatility and harshness of the scene, while also establishing the connection between the panels, perhaps the shared thought of both panels). It suggests an internal growth from the second to the first panel, and perhaps this is what comes to endear him so to Dumbledore.
That hand -- already blackened by the Gaunt ring? -- so convulsive, desperate, disgusted and disgusting as it grips the sink as though for some kind of anchorage. Putting "disgust" and "me" on Albus' side of the equation tips the balance of the scales in an unexpected and wonderful way, in a way I find absolutely plausible and delicious.
In short, dearest, this is stunning, a punch to the gut in the best of ways, a glorious, thought-provoking achievement.
February 14 2012, 07:30:06 UTC 3 months ago
February 14 2012, 07:39:31 UTC 3 months ago
The hand - every detail is great. And so much left over for interpretation. A most intriguing work, and one to which I'll return.
February 14 2012, 07:41:22 UTC 3 months ago
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February 14 2012, 08:20:40 UTC 3 months ago
Your Snape is fantastic! I love how emaciated he is and that he can't stand his own sight. And Dumbledore's rotten hand with the Horcrux. The question who is more disgusting here.
Absolutely brilliant!
February 14 2012, 09:59:51 UTC 3 months ago
Very expressive and sad.
February 14 2012, 16:01:37 UTC 3 months ago
February 14 2012, 16:55:15 UTC 3 months ago
And it's the mirror that's the real problem, isn't it? Albus sees himself in Severus, reads his own failings onto the young man before him - even when Severus has chosen a different path and it's clear than Albus isn't free from temptation. And yet Albus has the appearance of all that is good and moral and right while Severus has the appearance of all that is wrong. It's so clear here that Albus is disgusted with himself. I would hope so - the fact that he can say both 'you disgust me' and whatever it was about saving an old man from embarrassment is still shocking to me... (Embarrassment? Embarrassment, really? It's embarrassment and not deep, personal shame over the fact that even after all you've seen and done, Albus, you still aren't free from the desire to harness power through the stone?) My question is this: what does Severus see in Albus' actions?
This is brilliant - beautiful and horrible. Thank you for sharing it.
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Extraordinary piece!
February 29 2012, 23:57:47 UTC 2 months ago
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